soo, im realizing, that as an african american woman. i got it bad. im technically FORCED into a lose , lose situation in life when it comes to men. heres what i came up w/ ...
SITUATION #1
if a blakc woman falls in love wit a no good cheating man, and
A. either everyone knows hes a jerk/cheater but doesnt tell her cuz of either
a1. the "bro code" OR
a2. stayin out of it cuz it's "none of their business"
or B. everyone one does know, including the female, but she puts up w/ it anyways
THENNNN, now she becomes known as the "dumb bitch" or "stupid bitch" .... and we all know one of those.
SITUATION #2
if a black woman realizes that she has been with an aint shit, cheatin ass man, then chooses to dump his ass. moves on, yet does not forget about her past. and in fact learns from it and applies it to her future interactions w/ men. the men now have a problem w/ it and think that EVERY SINGLE WORD out of her mouth was a knokc at either him or the male race (when it probably was just a joke).... THENNNN we come across the "angry blakc women"
either one of those scenarios jst sukcs. if your in love that doesnt make you dumb, and if yur playin it safe than sorry that doesnt make you mean, angry, or hostile.
sighhh .... when will things begin to change... and where do we start.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Life.
Since I am only 19, I realize that I don't have all the answers when it comes to life and its meaning and whatnot. However, I do know a thing or two. And the fact of the matter is, SHIT HAPPENS. all the time, good shit, bad shit, sometimes jst regular shit. and despite the fact that EVERYONE in the WORLD knows this, somehow, people still manage to have their life in shambles and doing miserably.
I mean its like seriously, get your stuff together. Like, realisticly, people can ecourage education and all that, but really though, not everyone is going to go to college, and not everyone thats in college is gonna be living the good life w/ that six figure salary. for our country to be stable we need all the social classes; rich, working, and poor.
but this isnt about social classes, and money, this is about happyness. i just wish everyone in their respected class would just do what they really loved to do.
if your poor, and you love smoking dope and shooting up, its what makes you happy, then by all means boo, do that. however, if your poor and an addict, and you hate yourself for what you do, then change that shit. i dont care what made you start doin drugs, find the strength in yourself to quit and do something better with yourself. same thing w/ the corporate bigshot, your in meeting 24/7 and you love that, then fine, but if your in meetings 24/7 and never see your family, and all you wanna do is live in a cabin in colorado, then make that change honey.
we all are so scared of doing what makes us happy in fear of other peoples judgement, or feeling like we owe it to someone. but its like for what? your gonna live a miserable life because of what someone else thinks. now mind you, if you have a family or other obligations then that should also be taken into consdieration. but for us who have only ourselves. TAKE A RISK.
i'm all for friends, and caring, but at the end of the day, if im busy worried about you and how to fix your problems... whos gonna worry about me and how to fix mine. i'm on a mission in life, to be a trainer for a sports team. not because i have to, not because it pays well, but because I WANT TO. i am taking control of my life because thats my job. i owe it to myself.
.... just like you owe it to yourself. get off your ass and do what you need to do. no matter what the circumstances.
w/ love
zac
I mean its like seriously, get your stuff together. Like, realisticly, people can ecourage education and all that, but really though, not everyone is going to go to college, and not everyone thats in college is gonna be living the good life w/ that six figure salary. for our country to be stable we need all the social classes; rich, working, and poor.
but this isnt about social classes, and money, this is about happyness. i just wish everyone in their respected class would just do what they really loved to do.
if your poor, and you love smoking dope and shooting up, its what makes you happy, then by all means boo, do that. however, if your poor and an addict, and you hate yourself for what you do, then change that shit. i dont care what made you start doin drugs, find the strength in yourself to quit and do something better with yourself. same thing w/ the corporate bigshot, your in meeting 24/7 and you love that, then fine, but if your in meetings 24/7 and never see your family, and all you wanna do is live in a cabin in colorado, then make that change honey.
we all are so scared of doing what makes us happy in fear of other peoples judgement, or feeling like we owe it to someone. but its like for what? your gonna live a miserable life because of what someone else thinks. now mind you, if you have a family or other obligations then that should also be taken into consdieration. but for us who have only ourselves. TAKE A RISK.
i'm all for friends, and caring, but at the end of the day, if im busy worried about you and how to fix your problems... whos gonna worry about me and how to fix mine. i'm on a mission in life, to be a trainer for a sports team. not because i have to, not because it pays well, but because I WANT TO. i am taking control of my life because thats my job. i owe it to myself.
.... just like you owe it to yourself. get off your ass and do what you need to do. no matter what the circumstances.
w/ love
zac
Sunday, November 14, 2010
its going good....
I must say, idk if its luck, God or some sort of other higher power but its been going real good, and im very thankful for that. recap.
11/11/2010 - hollywood. clubbb. poppin x]
11/12/2010 - chillll dayyyy
11/13/2010 - trails party. cuddle time :]
11/14/2010 - work, sleep, work, game night, milk and cookies, rest
aha, soo, im tryna be on my pimpin game cuz apparently im a hot commodity right now lol. no but seriously i've been hangin out w/ different people and i must say im not too good at this game cuz i find myself slowly getting attached to one in particular. he's a little older so its a little different for me, for him as well since im a little younger.
idk, i guess im jst conflicted because I have so much on my plate right now, and I don't want to jump into something right now w/ the possibility of me going to school in DC in literally a couple months. I guess i'll just go w/ the flow and let the chips fall where they may.
w/ love
z.aisha.c.
11/11/2010 - hollywood. clubbb. poppin x]
11/12/2010 - chillll dayyyy
11/13/2010 - trails party. cuddle time :]
11/14/2010 - work, sleep, work, game night, milk and cookies, rest
aha, soo, im tryna be on my pimpin game cuz apparently im a hot commodity right now lol. no but seriously i've been hangin out w/ different people and i must say im not too good at this game cuz i find myself slowly getting attached to one in particular. he's a little older so its a little different for me, for him as well since im a little younger.
idk, i guess im jst conflicted because I have so much on my plate right now, and I don't want to jump into something right now w/ the possibility of me going to school in DC in literally a couple months. I guess i'll just go w/ the flow and let the chips fall where they may.
w/ love
z.aisha.c.
Friday, November 12, 2010
blakc ops :]
So, let's recap.
I have scored an awesome job at best buy and bath and body works. I have been going out, having fun, drinking at a minimal of course :], AND I have been devoting the past few days to COD and I must say that I am impressed x]
On to a more personal thought. I am realizing that as appealing as the idea of settling down may be, I jst don't want too. Or maybe I'm just not ready because I'm scared. I think my logic is that, Im only 19, and I have my whole life to have a realtionship (unless i were to suddenly peril tomorrow) and idk, I guess its just not that serious to me right now.
Schools good, friends are good, and work is good. so all in all, things are just going GREAT. I don't want to rock the boat. So I'm just going to go with the flow and let the chips fall where they may.
... speaking of chips(poker) I must say that the idea of counting cards is becoming more appealing to me.
w/ love
z.a.c.
I have scored an awesome job at best buy and bath and body works. I have been going out, having fun, drinking at a minimal of course :], AND I have been devoting the past few days to COD and I must say that I am impressed x]
On to a more personal thought. I am realizing that as appealing as the idea of settling down may be, I jst don't want too. Or maybe I'm just not ready because I'm scared. I think my logic is that, Im only 19, and I have my whole life to have a realtionship (unless i were to suddenly peril tomorrow) and idk, I guess its just not that serious to me right now.
Schools good, friends are good, and work is good. so all in all, things are just going GREAT. I don't want to rock the boat. So I'm just going to go with the flow and let the chips fall where they may.
... speaking of chips(poker) I must say that the idea of counting cards is becoming more appealing to me.
w/ love
z.a.c.
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